hi, my name is bell. i’d like to kill you but i’m not sure how.

i’m halfway positive you’re already in control of me but does it
really matter anyhow?

i saw you once.
in a dream.
it all made sense.
i’ve got five thousand lucky stars & they’re all betting against
you. i see this. this idea so strong in our minds & we’re
somewhere so far from where we are right now.
the chrome hearts we learned so well to obey, so many
lifetimes later.
so many dreams lost.
so many hearts broken.
either way, you say it’s just the same.

kiss me once, if only it says goodbye. to lose you will kill me
inside but for your love the consequences will be nothing less
than worth it. how many nights i dreamt of a touch soft as
yours.
dreamt of something deeper than i had known before.
now you’re coming through in waves,
heavier than the deepest ocean’s currents,
farther than the lightest stars of my eyes.

i’m here alone now stuck driving down this same road
the pavement rolling out before me like some new age
deathtrap, the lines ripping apart the road,
surely i will crash soon, always watching the world pass as my
gaze is stuck in the rear-view
who’s sorry now? your eyes ask;
so selfish are you!
i guess you never recognized that it was me all along. it was
me who stole your innocence & your pride & your cheshire cat
& all i really want is to know that
you cared
once.